it's been awhile

it's father's day.
yay.
i ate, but i wasn't hungry.
i slept, because i was awake all night.
i sneezed, because the allergy medicine wore off.

listening to Eminem rap me something motivational.
i hope this feeling goes away.
not soon, just in general.
please go away.
please.

one more final

why on earth do i have a final on the last day.
i had a final on tuesday, and two finals on wednesday.
and one more final on the monday the following week.
I COULD HAVE BEEN CELEBRATING ALREADY.

mmm, dslr is so sick.
artistic juices flowing.

so many things planned this summer.

i need to burp.

kay that was just a quick post.
grrrr

the weekend

going to celebrate my sister's graduation this weekend.
going to california adventures and disneyland.
haven't been there in awhile.
it's gonna be fun.
not that excited, but yeah.

mmm, wearing contacts for the first time in awhile as well.
i became dizzy.
wooooo.

a lot of things have been happening.
or not happening i guess.
a lot of things are changing.
a lot is on my mind.

kay, gonna sleep on the car ride there.
woke up way too early.
should have done homework for class on monday.
i'll just regret my choices and do it sunday night.

rawr!

i miss this one girl a lot.

random post

so i had a class today,
but i'm not going.
i woke up and realized i had a lot to do and i started getting stressed out.
but i stayed calm and just thought it out.
i decided i can go to the class a different time, and just handle my stuff.
but yeah.

what's new?
school's almost done.
just getting serious with all that.
slowly planning out my summer so i'm not just sitting around.
i really want to have a cousin get together.
i have a big family but i realized that i rarely see them.
so i want to try that out.

mmm, i bought some stuff this week.
I'M STILL A KID AT HEART!
so yeah.
i was pretty stoked when i got these guys.
no joke.



kay, i'm hungry.
rawr.

studying for my accounting test

obviously that's a lie.
i'm doing this.

anyway,
i'm sleepy but i want to review all of this.
i'll probably wake up tomorrow and review some more.
we'll see.

did another two day split today, but did a better job.
worked out at school and did cardio, abs, and triceps.
then went to my class.
afterwards i rested and went to the gym in the afternoon.
i wanted to hit legs pretty intensely so i went at it with some low squats.
i wasn't able to add to much weight to my squat but oh well.
there's always next ime.
did some leg press,
extensions and hamstring,
and abductor and aductor and felt light headed.
but yeah.
i think i'm kind of understanding two day split.
it sucked that my first was so light.
i'll plan it out better next time
i probably should use more time in the middle to rest, so i can get two good workouts instead of one warmup and one awesome.

anyway, i should get back to reviewing.
gah, i want to go to the comic book shop or store to just "browse" but i know i'll end up spending money that i should be saving or putting towards something more important.

mkay
rawr!

IT CAME!

(that's what she said)

so i came home from a long day of school.
well not that long,
but i'm a big baby and i like to complain.

they said to expect it on the 3rd to the 6th.
so i expected it on the 11th.
i don't trust anything.
haha

but yeah, so i opened my door and there on the counter:


i quickly dropped my bag like an excited little boy and:



dark avengers minimates.
i've been a fan of venom and daken for how long,
and gah, when dark avengers came out, i was giddy.
so yeah.
it also came with that random bean toy thing.
i have someone in mind i want to give it to, but yeah.
these are my first minimates, and i think i'll collect more.



this is just what comes inside the box.
i might go in dept later cause each one is awesome in it's own way.
especially daken, my favorite.

well, that's it for now.
maybe write more later.
maybe not.
grrrr

my internet is working...

...but for how long?

there was a brown out last night.
i was scared.
and a good friend came back in town for a visit.
that's always good.
i'm hungry, but have to wait a little while till i can eat again.
and i have some homework i should be doing, i'll probably do later.
mkay, well then, what to do, what to do.

i'm hungry,
and that's all i'm thinking about right now.
here are my meat cookies:



haven't made them in awhile.
gah, can't wait till i bulk again.
but yeah.
they may look gross, or sound gross.
but i promise you, they are pretty darn tasty.

mmmmkay

rawr

mkay then

internet is working for the time being, i suppose i will have a little show and tell.



so i was studying this past week and falling asleep in the library.
while i was slouching i realized under the shelf on the desk was this calender where someone wrote in the middle, "mark your day."
there weren't that many marks that you can see, but now someone will know when my birthday is.
to either murder me, or give me cake.



a freaking bird laid a big doo-doo on my truck.
super big.

kay, i need to poo now.
i'll post more later.
woke up to this morning to my dad telling me my turtle was dead...
he thought he died.
i have to watch him today.
mkay, my stomach hurts.

rawr.

grrrr

i have some pictures i want to post up but i'm too lazy.
i'm sleepy but i'm gonna stay up a bit with my chubby buddy while she does homework.

mmm, good/bad day at the gym today.
tried a two day split.
but i know i was doing it wrong.
went to school in the morning to do back.
got a compliment about my arms.
some guys can be so homo at times.
but then hit shoulders in the afternoon with my old man.
blah.

anyway.
drama is drama.
seriously, i want it to just go away.
but who doesn't.
oh yeah, people that welcome drama with open arms.

anyway.
i'm soo hungry.

this is stupid.

i never meant to sound like this

just got back from my text.
blah.
doesn't matter too much.
just going to drop the lowest score.

i lied.
i hate it when people ask what's wrong.
i don't want to give a fake smile or make an excuse.
i don't want to tell the truth,
i just don't want to have anything wrong.

i'm going to end it tonight.
it's for the best.
well maybe i'm just making it sound like it's for the best.
to satisfy my needs and disregard others.

but hey,
can't i be selfish at times?

i guess not.

"if i could choose, it's only you."

i'm done

i'm sleepy

So is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield

Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever

i love those lyrics.
i have to study for a test.
not letting it get to me too much.
but i do have a test in two days that i'm more concerned about.
i wanted to buy random junk today.
thor and magneto action figure.
but i didn't.
i also wanted a nerf gun.
stupid me.
anyway.
just wanted to make a post.

lalalala

oh crap, food fest

never showed these pictures, and i don't even remember when i went, but oh well.

FOOD FESTIVAL PICTURES!

1. some chinese taco truck


2. expensive tiny ice cream sandwiches


3. "cougar burger" with st. andre meat...


4. BURGERritto tacos


5. QZILLA bbq....


6. vegetarian chili cheese fries. SOYRIZO


we were there for maybe a few hours.
the portions were small but i still felt fat.
this was the weekend before i started cutting so that's why i decided to go and pig out.
there were food trucks that i didn't get to try, but oh well.
i still want to start my own foodtruck one day.
or just be able to cook like that so i don't have to drive around to find a food truck.
gah, but qzilla was amazing.
i'm a sucker for good bbq.

i'm going to make a shout out to my chubby buddy right now.
one day we'll go to a food festival like this.
i probably won't feel like a such a fatty, or maybe we can both be fatties together.

i'll try to get the names of all the trucks, i video taped most of the event.
if anyone is reading this and has any questions about food or life.
hit me up.

RAWR

gdmorning/gdluck

i was eating breakfast while my mom started talking to me.
she asked me if i was getting more tattoos.
then told me that she wanted me to get one on my shoulder.
she thinks i'm getting more sea animals, but what she doesn't know is that i'm saving that spot for a classic "mom" tattoo.

quick bio on my mother.
-she is a daughter, sister, wife, and mother.
-she's a nurse and wanted to be one ever since she was a little girl.
-she can barely lift stuff but she is THEE strongest person i know.
-she has her hobbies and is damn right proud and happy she's doing them.
-she's the best.

there's a lot more, but yeah.

i've been thinking about the mom tattoo for awhile now.
not quite sure how i exactly want it so that's why i'm not rushing it.
but it will incorporate her passion for being a nurse, and her other passions.
i'm already getting her favorite flower on me, but maybe i'll add that as well.

well, we'll see.
i should be studying before church.
but i'm not...

RAWR

time to "man-up"

but then run away like a little girl right after.

i wrote a 6 page essay, stuffed it in an envelope, and colored on the outside how i felt on the inside.
hope the message was sent.
i didn't even understand it, but i rarely understand anything even if it comes from me.

i was finally able to think earlier while i was at the gym.
i did my occasional head nod to the regulars but the whole time i was just thinking.

this post isn't necessary.
i don't even think this blog is necessary.
but oh well.
i'll deal with it anyway.

there's a lot on my to-do list:
-learn how to cook MORE food.
-start doing arts and crafts again.
-remember how it is to be a kid.
-and much more.

a good friend told me her random list.
every little thing about her that makes her who she is made me happy.
all simple, but sweet.

i'll work on my random list for next time.

my nose is itchy.

i just picked it
O.O

gdnight?

Hello

I know this blog isn't going to be read.
I won't even read it.
But i feel like starting one, and actually using it.

There's a cough i have right now that i would like to get rid of, like most things bothering me right now.
I hate looking like a quitter, but there are just some things that are better to walk away from and not deal with.
Not because they're too hard,
but because it's just not worth the time.

From each time a person perseveres through something,
they get stronger.
But every time someone quits when "the going gets tough",
they don't get any stronger, but stay the same.
Honestly,
i'm okay with how i am now.
I don't want to change.

I'm probably looking at things in a negative light.
But hey, someone has to.
There are pessimistic people and there are optimistic people.
If we had one but not the other, the world would be a dull place.

I'm going to eat breakfast.
And try my best to do some studying.