grrrr

i have some pictures i want to post up but i'm too lazy.
i'm sleepy but i'm gonna stay up a bit with my chubby buddy while she does homework.

mmm, good/bad day at the gym today.
tried a two day split.
but i know i was doing it wrong.
went to school in the morning to do back.
got a compliment about my arms.
some guys can be so homo at times.
but then hit shoulders in the afternoon with my old man.
blah.

anyway.
drama is drama.
seriously, i want it to just go away.
but who doesn't.
oh yeah, people that welcome drama with open arms.

anyway.
i'm soo hungry.

this is stupid.

i never meant to sound like this

just got back from my text.
blah.
doesn't matter too much.
just going to drop the lowest score.

i lied.
i hate it when people ask what's wrong.
i don't want to give a fake smile or make an excuse.
i don't want to tell the truth,
i just don't want to have anything wrong.

i'm going to end it tonight.
it's for the best.
well maybe i'm just making it sound like it's for the best.
to satisfy my needs and disregard others.

but hey,
can't i be selfish at times?

i guess not.

"if i could choose, it's only you."

i'm done

i'm sleepy

So is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine on jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield

Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever

i love those lyrics.
i have to study for a test.
not letting it get to me too much.
but i do have a test in two days that i'm more concerned about.
i wanted to buy random junk today.
thor and magneto action figure.
but i didn't.
i also wanted a nerf gun.
stupid me.
anyway.
just wanted to make a post.

lalalala

oh crap, food fest

never showed these pictures, and i don't even remember when i went, but oh well.

FOOD FESTIVAL PICTURES!

1. some chinese taco truck


2. expensive tiny ice cream sandwiches


3. "cougar burger" with st. andre meat...


4. BURGERritto tacos


5. QZILLA bbq....


6. vegetarian chili cheese fries. SOYRIZO


we were there for maybe a few hours.
the portions were small but i still felt fat.
this was the weekend before i started cutting so that's why i decided to go and pig out.
there were food trucks that i didn't get to try, but oh well.
i still want to start my own foodtruck one day.
or just be able to cook like that so i don't have to drive around to find a food truck.
gah, but qzilla was amazing.
i'm a sucker for good bbq.

i'm going to make a shout out to my chubby buddy right now.
one day we'll go to a food festival like this.
i probably won't feel like a such a fatty, or maybe we can both be fatties together.

i'll try to get the names of all the trucks, i video taped most of the event.
if anyone is reading this and has any questions about food or life.
hit me up.

RAWR

gdmorning/gdluck

i was eating breakfast while my mom started talking to me.
she asked me if i was getting more tattoos.
then told me that she wanted me to get one on my shoulder.
she thinks i'm getting more sea animals, but what she doesn't know is that i'm saving that spot for a classic "mom" tattoo.

quick bio on my mother.
-she is a daughter, sister, wife, and mother.
-she's a nurse and wanted to be one ever since she was a little girl.
-she can barely lift stuff but she is THEE strongest person i know.
-she has her hobbies and is damn right proud and happy she's doing them.
-she's the best.

there's a lot more, but yeah.

i've been thinking about the mom tattoo for awhile now.
not quite sure how i exactly want it so that's why i'm not rushing it.
but it will incorporate her passion for being a nurse, and her other passions.
i'm already getting her favorite flower on me, but maybe i'll add that as well.

well, we'll see.
i should be studying before church.
but i'm not...

RAWR

time to "man-up"

but then run away like a little girl right after.

i wrote a 6 page essay, stuffed it in an envelope, and colored on the outside how i felt on the inside.
hope the message was sent.
i didn't even understand it, but i rarely understand anything even if it comes from me.

i was finally able to think earlier while i was at the gym.
i did my occasional head nod to the regulars but the whole time i was just thinking.

this post isn't necessary.
i don't even think this blog is necessary.
but oh well.
i'll deal with it anyway.

there's a lot on my to-do list:
-learn how to cook MORE food.
-start doing arts and crafts again.
-remember how it is to be a kid.
-and much more.

a good friend told me her random list.
every little thing about her that makes her who she is made me happy.
all simple, but sweet.

i'll work on my random list for next time.

my nose is itchy.

i just picked it
O.O

gdnight?

Hello

I know this blog isn't going to be read.
I won't even read it.
But i feel like starting one, and actually using it.

There's a cough i have right now that i would like to get rid of, like most things bothering me right now.
I hate looking like a quitter, but there are just some things that are better to walk away from and not deal with.
Not because they're too hard,
but because it's just not worth the time.

From each time a person perseveres through something,
they get stronger.
But every time someone quits when "the going gets tough",
they don't get any stronger, but stay the same.
Honestly,
i'm okay with how i am now.
I don't want to change.

I'm probably looking at things in a negative light.
But hey, someone has to.
There are pessimistic people and there are optimistic people.
If we had one but not the other, the world would be a dull place.

I'm going to eat breakfast.
And try my best to do some studying.